Today I spoke my mind—and heart to God.
I’ve been reading Job and I liked how he just told God, straight out, how he felt.
“Oh that I might have my request,
and that God would fulfill my hope,
that it would please God to crush me,
that he would let loose his hand and cut me off!
This would be my comfort;
I would even exult in pain unsparing,
for I have not denied the words of the Holy One.
What is my strength, that I should wait?
And what is my end, that I should be patient?
Is my strength the strength of stones, or is my flesh bronze?
Have I any help in me,
when resource is driven from me?
Here’s the lesson I take from this: God can handle it when we tell Him what we won’t, what we can’t tell anyone else. Say it all to Him. Pout it out. Ask Him why.
David did the same thing and his words are right there in Psalm 142.
Look at his descriptions of what he did:
I cry out to the Lord
I pour out my complaint
Bring me out of prison
With my voice I cry out to the Lord;
with my voice I plead for mercy to the Lord.
I pour out my complaint before him;
I tell my trouble before him.
When my spirit faints within me,
you know my way!
In the path where I walk
they have hidden a trap for me.
Look to the right and see:
there is none who takes notice of me;
no refuge remains to me;
no one cares for my soul.
I cry to you, O Lord;
I say, “You are my refuge,
my portion in the land of the living.”
Attend to my cry,
for I am brought very low!
Deliver me from my persecutors,
for they are too strong for me!
Bring me out of prison,
that I may give thanks to your name!
I’m not experiencing suffering like Job or danger like David.
If you looked into my life you’d think, “What’s she going on about? What’s her problem?”
But, we all have problems.
We all have questions buried deep in our hearts.
Today I took a few of mine to God.
I asked Him my questions and I felt better for having asked. I didn’t ask Him to change a situation or person, I just ask Him some why questions.
I believe He’s going to give me some answers in the coming weeks and months, but today He gave me His peace.
We have an open invitation to ask and a promise that God will answer.
“Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know.”
Maybe you have an old hurt or a betrayal that rises to the surface from time to time. You’ve forgiven, but the why of it is a mystery.
Or, you might be wondering about the course of your life. The road not taken.
Talk to God about it.
You’ll find peace and maybe understanding because you’re ready now for the deeper lesson.