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I Must Not Be Doing Christian Right.

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It seems like it should be easier after 43 years.
I must not be doing Christian right.
Shouldn’t I continually feel God’s presence and absolutely know His ‘perfect’ will by now?  Why don’t I pray without ceasing? Why don’t I live a more selfless life?  These are the questions I can waste a lot of time asking, but I know who’s really asking those questions.
My Adversary.  The Accuser.


God, my Father, never asks those things.

He knows my frame, that I’m of the dust and cobbled together by His power, that’s enough for now.

This dust sculpture doesn’t have to last forever.
God knows what I will be.  He’s in a completely different time zone and when I arrive there none of this dust will cling to me. This corruption must put on incorruption.  Mortality swallowed up in immortality.

Learning to walk with Him is a long course.
Receiving from Him takes practice.  I keep trying to do it all myself as though I could. How to receive transformation?  How do I let the power flow in and up to overflowing?

First I’m asking for it.
I think I’ve quit depending. Quit expecting. Maybe even quit believing it could be so simple.
From now on I’m asking for abiding.
I’m asking for companionship. I’m asking to hear and receive.

I’m quieting the shoulds and tearing up the To Do list.
Walking with God isn’t about productivity; it’s about knowing Him deeply and enjoying Him fully.

There is some barren terrain between all that I know and the way I that I live.

A recalibrating is long overdue.
He’s been patiently waiting for me to tire of self-reliance and turn again to Him.

The Christian life is described as a race that’s set before us.
The old exhortation is to lay aside the weight and sin that so easily entangles us and run with endurance the race that is set before us—looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith.

Looking to Him.

I’m asking for companionship and then looking to Him.

There’s a beautiful thrilling mixture of peace and excitement when I think about what God has planned.
I know He has divine plans for me, for all of us whose names are written in the Lamb’s Book of Life.  BIG PLANS.


To the world none of it is BIG.

They’re all wearing spiritual Kevlar that protects them from absorbing or being penetrated by eternal thoughts.
They never escape the earth’s atmosphere but spend all of this precious life focused on getting and spending.  They seek to make a name for themselves and the yardstick in each one’s hand is his fellow man.


Believers do it too.
Can we finally break the habit of self-measuring and trust Him for the growth and the end result?
He wants to welcome each of us with a “Well done good and faithful servant”, but distraction and the desire for “other things” chokes out the life sustaining word.

We hear, but not really.
It doesn’t sink down into our ears.

Life is a limited commodity.

I want to use it wisely.
I can’t accept a mediocre existence.
I believe in eternity and I care about people.
I want the talents He entrusted to make a good gain. I want to see a few people in heaven because I was faithful in my walk with God.


That’s what I really truly desire, a small part in the salvation and the edification of the people I have the privilege of meeting in this life.

I want to feed the hungry and clothe the naked, to love the unloved and teach the sincere seeker.  I want women to love their husbands and children and men to be kind and caring. I want children to grow up knowing God because their mothers knew Him. I want husbands to want to know the God who changed their wife—filling her heart with love and her days with kindness and caring. I want pastors and their wives to be uplifted finding joy and peace in their calling.


I want to feel His presence as I minister and study and pray and cook and clean and walk through a village, to live as an example of a believer in love and faith, to trust God as Sarah learned to trust and then received strength to conceive.
It’s not to late for me to bear miracle fruit in my old age.

I refuse to look back wistfully and think what might have been.

My eyes are facing forward and I have fixed them on Christ.
That plan He has will get revealed day by day and His strength is gonna flow through a pipeline called faith until it bubbles up and spills out of my life 😉



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  1. lisa evola says:

    What a beautiful, honest reflection kelly. I want those things too…and my prayer is that I won’t wait for someone else to do them…that the holy spirit will lead me there and fill my life with all that is worthy. I want to love a worthwhile life, in the service of my Savior. I want love for my fellow man to flow through me…even my enemies. I want to be the change instead of waiting for the change. I want to take that first step today…the first step towards eternity.

    • Kelly Grace says:

      God is at work in us both to will and to do His good pleasure 😉 Even our wanting is a work of His Spirit. “A worthwhile life” ~ what a good thing to want.

  2. M Charles says:

    I love what you wrote Kelly. Thanks for sharing this. God bless

  3. realchange4u says:

    Reblogged this on realchange4u and commented:
    For me this was one of the most eye opening and profound personal statements of faith and desire to get it right I have heard in a long time. Kelly nailed it dead on Lord let this be my desire also.

  4. realchange4u says:

    Kelly I don’t reblog very many post. Not that they are not any good it is that there are so many good ones. So when one like this genuine heart felt desire comes along to get it right with God . I have to and must reblog the post and share it with a many as possible. This has been the heart of several men I meet with on Tuesday nights to pray with. Just trusting and hearing God. Revival in our souls and a deep repentance for our sins. Oh that we all would hear God and walk in His grace and mercy. I want go on you have said it well already. Lord refresh Kelly and give her peace and quiet as you walks in faith and love with you on her journey home. Trusting you and loving others.

    Much love Tom

    • Kelly Grace says:

      Thanks Tom. It’s such an encouragement to be in community with others who want to experience all God has for us to be and do 😉 God bless you & the Tuesday night gang.

  5. John says:

    Such powerful words Kelly!

    • Kelly Grace says:

      😉 Thanks John. I found this piece in an old desktop folder called 750 Words. http://750words.com
      It’s an online writing site I use to encourage myself to write unedited. Writing in my journal I find I stop and critique what I write ~ on 750 words I just get it out of my head and heart.

  6. When I read this awesome post I thought of one word…Surrender.
    It is in the same light as this May 12, 2015 devotion from Oswald Chambers.
    Blessings to you, my friend.

  7. Kelly, so transparent and lovely. You connected with my heart today – with my core and my hopes, too. It is a long course. Step by step, one foot after the other, just today, being thrilled with being beloved.

  8. rolson17 says:

    And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ ~ Philippians 1:6

  9. Mary says:

    Pressing on!

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